Derailed Mind
I don't trust my mind
In it can be found
All I try to hide
I often stare off into space
Allowing my mind to do its thing
One thought turns into several
Next thing I know there's a movie playing
A romance movie
My thoughts make out with one another
Sometimes in dark allies
Next to overflowing trash cans and stray cats
Where the truth cannot be seen
Other times in well-lit hallways
Where my flesh watches
Pressed up against a navy-blue locker
With a box of buttered popcorn
In hand
My brain and my conscience walk
Often at different paces
Down long dry country roads
Or in empty fields
Where ears of corn could be standing, listening
To all of my thoughts
My mind is really able to go
A mile a minute
After going into a daze
I find myself thinking
How can this be, mind always racing
Never toward a finish line
I never seem to finish a line
AKA train of thought
Because my mind derails
Now I'm off course
Not knowing how to stop
I shake it off, refocus
An emergency break
From my wandering thoughts
This. Is. Every. Day.
Not sure how or when
But I need to sit
In silence
Not the thought of it
The repeated thought of it
Seems to only be
I thought of it
Convinced myself I was in it
More than a thought of it
There it goes again
Focus
On the task at hand
Never get sidetracked
We know how that will go
Beside the track my train
Will go
I don't trust my mind
Although I often spend my time alone
In a room, sometimes empty
Always full of my thoughts, Movies
In my mind
Nothing hides
No pain, no fear, no doubt
They are often caught
In the well-lit afternoon
When the rest of my thoughts
Hide until after noon
When the sun has tanned
I don't trust my mind
Too many thoughts
Go there to be entertained