In my life, the Lord is the one person I consistently find myself apologizing to.
I'm sorry Lord for not being obedient. I'm sorry Lord for not spending time in your word. I'm sorry Lord for taking your kindness for granted, along with your love, peace and grace.
No matter how hard I try to be obedient to His will, I always find myself repenting, confessing and asking for forgiveness. The bible says, "for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God" – Romans 3:23 This brings me peace. Although it reminds me that I will continue to miss the mark and continue to sin and fall short,I find peace knowing I don't have to pressure myself to get it right. Gives me peace knowing that I will fall short but I can still go to the Lord and receive forgiveness. It also gives me hope. Hope in knowing that the Lord will always be there to hear my confession and to welcome me back in His loving and gentle arms.
I am trying not to allow my sins to make me fall shamefully at the feet of the Lord. I want to do better and I want to stop adding an I'm sorry, to my prayers. I want my actions to show that I am sorry and for my words to complement that. The Lord does not expect me to be perfect, nor does He expect me to come before Him in clean clothes. He expects me to go to Him in whatever condition I find myself in and He expects me to choose to follow Him with my whole heart. My hope is that I'd abandon my I'm sorry mentality and humbly present myself before the Lord when I feel I have failed Him. No longer do I want to go before Him in shame or guilt, but I want to present myself with having an understanding of my wrong coupled with an understanding of His forgiveness.
I will leave us with a prayer,
Father, I thank You for the ways You love me. I thank You for never leaving me even when I turned my back against You. I pray that I would begin to live a life that is filled with less apologies and filled with more asking of forgiveness. I thank You that Romans 3:23 reminds me that I will fall short of Your glory, but You still welcome me at Your feet. I pray that I would begin to fell less guilt when I have missed the mark and that I would take Your forgiveness serious and try my best to stay on the path You have called me to walk on.
I pray and ask all of these things in Jesus' name,