I need rest.
I have been sick this week, I noticed a few signs of a cold on Friday morning but acted as if it were not serious. I acted like I could not get sick. On Tuesday I realized I had a cold.
I get sick very rarely but when I do get sick, I do not take medicine. The main reason is because it all tastes nasty, but the other reason is because I am not great at swallowing pills. Not every medicine is chewable or in the gummy form so I stay away from it and let it run its course. This is not the best way to fight a cold, because it is not fighting at all.
Why am I talking about being sick? I am glad you asked, I am talking about being sick because when I am sick I realize I need a lot of rest. My body cannot purge and fight the sickness if I am not resting, it can actually get worse the more I resist rest.
Resting to me feels a lot like taking nasty medicine. I know it will be good for me and my health in the long run but in the moment it just does not sound like the best idea.
I used to think resting was for the weak, but what I have found (since being sick) is that resting is actually for the strong. Resting, if done correctly (setting daily time aside to take a break) promotes strength and prevents burn out. When I rest physically, I am giving my body time to get itself together and to wind down for a bit before going to the next task. When I rest in the presence of the Lord, I open myself up to receiving what the Lord has for me. I open myself up to hearing, to just being in His presence and to being in a place to receive instead of giving.
I am a giver. If I see a need and can meet it, I will. While that is not a bad thing, it can become a not so great thing when I do not allow myself to rest. If I do not allow myself to be poured into and to be filled then I will continue to run around like a chicken with my head cut off.
During this time of being sick, I feel the Lord calling me to rest.
I will leave us with a prayer,
Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, they will be done, on earth as it is in heaven, give me today my daily bread. Lord as I am learning how to rest, would you help to search each day you wake me for the bread you have for me? Would you help me stay focused on today and what today has? I pray that I would begin to find joy in resting and in taking time to be with you without fear of disappointing those around me. Would you help me to slow down and enjoy the beautiful things you have placed around me? Would you help me slow down so I can enjoy you and your presence? I pray that I would grow stronger as I rest in you. Would you continue to keep me Father?
I pray and ask all of these things in your son Jesus' name,