Running

When the going gets tough, Jas wants to go! I have always been one to avoid conflict of any sort, no matter what I have to do. I avoid potential conflict by not expressing my feelings or by not saying anything at all. I do not want to be like this anymore. I want to be able to have a disagreement or to see a conflict situation rising and not run and hide but to face it and deal with it.

So what do I do when I feel like I am in a bind, have too many thoughts flooding my mind and I feel like running from the hard conversation coming up? I ask the Lord to send me help, to rescue me. I want the Lord to come and rescue me from me! More than I want to be rescued from the situation, the conversation, the person, I want the Lord to rescue me from me.

In scripture I read how the Lord encourages us to go to Him with what is on our hearts and minds (1 Peter 5:7). This scripture encourages me to go to the Lord with my worries, frustrations, fears and feelings of running. He reassures me He cares for me and in that I find comfort. Not only do I find comfort, I find a challenge. A challenge to no longer think and operate how I once did, but to run to the Lord instead of running away.

I am asking the Lord to rescue me from my thoughts and from my innate instinct to run from tough situations. In what ways do you need the Lord to rescue you?

I will leave us with a prayer,

Lord I thank you for waking me this morning. I thank you for watching me as the day has gone on. I pray and ask for you to continue to rescue me from myself. To rescue me from running and to rescue me from my own mind. I ask that you would help me see it is more beneficial for me to stay and face it than it is to run. I pray that you would remind me of your gentle hand always extended toward me. I pray that you would intervene when I feel like running and remind me you are with me. I pray that I would desire freedom more than I desire pleasing others and keeping the peace.

I pray and ask all of these things in Jesus' name,

Amen