Me and responsibility have a strained relationship.
Ever since I could remember I was deemed the "responsible one" in my family. I
wore that title. Expressed mostly in expectations as opposed to in
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These past few months
Tender.
I was sitting in a counseling session not too long ago and after sharing some
information, I heard words I had never heard anyone use when describing me. I
heard "she is
The above picture is a pile of two notebooks and an unnumbered stack of poems I
have written. Poems from 2010 up until recent years. Two days ago I grabbed my
poetry binder
I struggle with being needed. More specifically, I struggle with measuring my
worth and my usefulness by how much I am needed or not needed.
I am sure this is not a struggle
When it is dark outside I do not like to drive. I become anxious and drive too
close to the steering wheel.
One time in particular, I was driving around 5 am and
I realized a few days ago that I sometimes want to be sad and when given an
opportunity to leave my sadness, I choose to stay.
Why might I want to stay in
completely wrapped and covered in the love of Jesus.
in peace.
in comfort of the Holy Spirit.
in protection.
in the truth of Jesus.
unable to break free from His grasp.
His hands.
My fíance and I recently adopted a kitten. Prior to picking her up, we went to
get some essential things for her. A litter box, food, a toy and cat litter.
What we
Today I have realized that my insecurities are a product of my unbelief in who
God says I am.
Today I am wrestling with insecurities that I have not really wrestled with
since
There is a freedom that comes with remembering things. Even painful and
traumatic memories can lead to freedom. The freedom comes when I invite the Lord
to be with me.
Lately the Lord
I worry when I cannot see the plan. When things seem too blurry to comprehend, I
start asking questions and thinking "God where are you", my prayers are filled
with my unbelief. Imagine
I have been having a hard time writing. While this is not the first time I have
had "writers block", this is the first time I have experienced it to this
extent. Why,